Today I'm going to break my number 1 rule in blogging. I am going to hold back on my writing and feelings. Mainly because my students read this blog and I don't think it's appropriate to write everything down.
Students, if you are reading this, let me apologise first for being slightly irrelevant and incoherent in my lesson today. Some of you might have caught me staring into space thinking, and ignoring you. I apologise for letting my feelings and emotions get in the way of my lesson. I am sorry for undermining the professionalism and responsibility I'm required to display.
Earlier, I've said something about not writing everything down because it's inappropriate. Scratch that. I don't think I'll be able to do so even if I tried. Things are just a total mess right now. My mind's clouded with a million thoughts that I have been trying very hard to put in perspective but to no avail.
I tried to cast them at the back of my head and lose myself in the pile of literature assignments but they all start coming back to me, pleading for some form of resolution..or at least some organization.
The thoughts just don't flow smooth. So many coursing through my mind, yet all scraping the surface of comprehension.
I have already made my point clear last night. Time is on our side. Yet, I don't think I can continue with what I've set out to do in the midst of this seemingly interminable wait. It's only been that number of hours since yesterday but I can't get you out of my head no matter how hard I try.
I've already explained that it's necessary. Things can't just move on if one is held back by one thing or another. Lying to yourself is wrong. So taking a step back for a breather always helps.
I'm sorry for being a tad emo. However, I had to if not I would explode. I guess that's what emo does. I know, emo is a form of release..
It's not easy to hide your hurt behind a smile.
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