Just called up several schools to register for relief teaching. I just hope that I'll be able to keep this relief teaching job at least for half a year, just before I enter NUS.
Well..I guess it's 3 working days left in the army for me. Had a long break from Friday until now, going back to camp tomorrow and on Friday. Then following Monday would be i/c collection and it'll be back to civilian life.
It sounds pretty damn good to leave army. Although my army life is much less demanding than most units you can think of, it still feels good to be freed of the regiments and schedules you must die-die follow. However, other than being under the system, everything else about my vocation was great. And I think I'll miss the days and the camp itself, the afternoon breaks at the canteen and all the talk cok sessions in the evenings. Heh.
I would say it's 3 days more before I leave the comfort zone and out into the real world, away from the shelter in the camp. Suddenly so many possibilites open up, so much time awaiting to be spent, so many things I can do and so many places I can go.
It's a rather overwhelming thought.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Sunday, October 21, 2007
so i got my manual license
And so I got my Class 3 manual license on the 10th October, after being confined to an auto license for almost a year.
It was probably one of the worst decisions I have made in my life so far, to get a 3A license instead of a Class 3. It resulted in months of regret and uncertainty on whether to retake a manual license.
I realised that only being able to drive cars with 2 pedals was restrictive and I did not consider it a skill at all. Well, I don't even understand why I did not consider that in the first place. Probably I thought auto was easier and more straightforward. In the end, I went for private manual driving lessons in another attempt to get that coverted driving license as I didn't want to regret any longer.
Unlike my auto license which was sponsored by my parents, this one came entirely from my bank account. So I could actually feel the pinch whenever I had to withdraw money to pay for each lesson.
Anyway, manual driving was really fun once you got the hang of clutch control and changing gears. I kinda enjoyed my driving lessons really. But when the test date neared, it got more stressful rather than fun.
I had wanted to pass badly, although I could already drive around and actually take manual driving as a 'stress free' activity. I did not want to wait a few more months as I knew how agonising the wait could be. I also wasn't ready to fork out an average of 50 bucks per lesson for several more sessions. Not wanting to go through the trauma of yet another driving test was another reason.
I also had been driving on the road almost everyday for about a year, and if I still failed despite all that road experience, then perhaps I could be considered a rather lousy gear shifter. Heh.
Well. At least I set out to rectify the error in judgement I had made a year ago. And I am pretty happy I decided to start out learning driving again before I started regretting in future when I might be too busy to retake.
At least one thing has been settled before ord. One less thing to brood over.
It was probably one of the worst decisions I have made in my life so far, to get a 3A license instead of a Class 3. It resulted in months of regret and uncertainty on whether to retake a manual license.
I realised that only being able to drive cars with 2 pedals was restrictive and I did not consider it a skill at all. Well, I don't even understand why I did not consider that in the first place. Probably I thought auto was easier and more straightforward. In the end, I went for private manual driving lessons in another attempt to get that coverted driving license as I didn't want to regret any longer.
Unlike my auto license which was sponsored by my parents, this one came entirely from my bank account. So I could actually feel the pinch whenever I had to withdraw money to pay for each lesson.
Anyway, manual driving was really fun once you got the hang of clutch control and changing gears. I kinda enjoyed my driving lessons really. But when the test date neared, it got more stressful rather than fun.
I had wanted to pass badly, although I could already drive around and actually take manual driving as a 'stress free' activity. I did not want to wait a few more months as I knew how agonising the wait could be. I also wasn't ready to fork out an average of 50 bucks per lesson for several more sessions. Not wanting to go through the trauma of yet another driving test was another reason.
I also had been driving on the road almost everyday for about a year, and if I still failed despite all that road experience, then perhaps I could be considered a rather lousy gear shifter. Heh.
Well. At least I set out to rectify the error in judgement I had made a year ago. And I am pretty happy I decided to start out learning driving again before I started regretting in future when I might be too busy to retake.
At least one thing has been settled before ord. One less thing to brood over.
Saturday, October 6, 2007
broody
Ida Scott Taylor once wrote: Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.
I tend to think about stuff too much. I ponder about the things I've done or said which I felt I shouldn't have or start worrying about certain things that I'm about to do because I'm afraid I wouldn't perform up to my expectations. It seems like I'm always judging myself and it feels like something's missing if I didn't worry.
That's why sometimes people see me as quiet because I'm just basically sitting there brooding. I really should be indulging in the present and making the most out of it. If not I'm going to end up regretting in the future not doing this and that and start brooding all over again.
Going to leave the army in about a month's time, don't know if it's too late to start looking for a job. It's rather strange. I've always planned to look for a job after my army but now when the opportunity is nearing, I'm starting to feel lazy again. Oh well.
I tend to think about stuff too much. I ponder about the things I've done or said which I felt I shouldn't have or start worrying about certain things that I'm about to do because I'm afraid I wouldn't perform up to my expectations. It seems like I'm always judging myself and it feels like something's missing if I didn't worry.
That's why sometimes people see me as quiet because I'm just basically sitting there brooding. I really should be indulging in the present and making the most out of it. If not I'm going to end up regretting in the future not doing this and that and start brooding all over again.
Going to leave the army in about a month's time, don't know if it's too late to start looking for a job. It's rather strange. I've always planned to look for a job after my army but now when the opportunity is nearing, I'm starting to feel lazy again. Oh well.
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